Rest and Restore or Crash and Burn

This is how I felt most of the week.  I little sample of what I did and then undid.

This week has been energetically challenging for me due to many physical, emotional and spiritual reasons.  It is no surprise when I go back and take an inventory why I feel unbalanced and a bit of a shit show.  The full moon always gets me agitated.  My cycle begins along with it and most of the women I train because we are a tribe always together.  Finished up a “semester” of hypnotherapy that was targeted around my most intense wounds in my heart and soul.  Worked physically for 20 hours with clients and yoga studio’s.  Oh and less I forget, gathered my taxes and documents for the year and had to take inventory of my spending.  There are more things I am leaving out, that you all can fill in with your own story, because truly most of us experience similar things.  

So I had to balance all this shit out!  Omg if I didn’t well then I would not be able to do what I love the most, take care of others physically, mentally and spiritually.

I took my own advice and got rest this week at night.  Slept 8-9 hours every night.  I surrounded myself with friends and family, good food, sauna, bath, and an IV.  I did not train hard and offered more yoga to balance my energy.  I fed my body, mind and soul with a few things each day that balance.

The affects on me and others if I don’t do this:

1. I am irritable and aggravated which triggers my fears.
2. My self worth goes down the toilet.  I am not good enough.  The message come running through my mind.
3. I let down my boundaries because of my sense of worth.
4. I make irrational or poor decisions because I am not worth the other ones.
5. I will distract from all this and have some wine or get involved in emotional drama with family or relationships that do not serve me.
6. And now you can see the pattern quite clearly!

A favorite quote from Oriah Mountain Dreamer in “The Invitation”

“It doesn't interest me how old you are.

I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool, for love, for your dream, 

for the adventure of being alive.”