The Right Timing

The Right Timing

The last couple of months I have been struggling with making decisions. Waiting for the universe to give me a sign.  Procrastinate.  Blame it on timing, the moon is, if Mercury is retrograde or if I make a mistake!  Now I ask, is there such a thing as the “right timing”? 

After all that mindless shit I find myself in doubt, fear that it won’t work out or if I don’t act right now then I will miss out.

These all have one thing in common, TRUST.

When you trust the unviverse or God, Spirit, something bigger and greater than you…you just might let go of the intense feelings.

I have had mnay opportunities to try and manipulate “right timing” like:

·      Willing myself to do it.  Pushing the deal to go through like making a wedding happen when I wanted.

·      Freeze: not do anything, no efforts that are even positive, denial.

·      Procrastinating:  fear of failure or success, perfectionism, leading me to not change my career when I wanted to.

These are human behaviors based upon learned or innate characteristics dependent upon core beliefs.

You can change it with some tools with some practice.

TRUST the universe, God, a higher power to help.  Demand it.

Gather resources: educate yourself on the topic or characteristic you are struggling with.  See your strengths and your weaknesses. Books, Youtube, the world wide web where you know you are not alone.

The first step in all of this is positive action by admitting your doubts and fears.

FEARS = false evidence appearing real

Weakness = strength as this a golden opportunity for you to change, grow and evolve.

Meditate on this:

I accept my doubts and fears.

The right timing for “blank” is directly related to my union with universal flow.

See yourself, visualize yourself doing the thing you want with total universal support.

Sit with the thoughts, observe your immediately feelings.  Use your senses like hearing the noises of where you might be in this change, smell the space, sense how others are around you there.

Observe your immediate reactions:

·      Do you feel anthing?

·      Anxiety, fear, sadness, joy, ease, powerful, awesome

The primary feelings you feel come from your highest self and intuition.  These are great gifts so use them.

Trust “right timing” with practice and allow the universe to support your highest good. 

You Are Truth

You know what is true.

You have people who love you.

You have talents for survival and success.

You can sacrifice to persevere.

Through the struggles are the triumphs

Because,

You deserve happiness, freedom and love.

You are not an object, a subject, or controlled by anyone.

Your life is yours!

Spring brings change. Allow yourself to transition by releasing 

old patterns and behaviors that do not serve you.  

Love and honor yourself always.

Go to the ocean and renew.

Dream it, believe it.

My life continues to unfold and evolve in the most tremendous ways!  My friend and mentor Moses has been a blessing in so many attributes giving me the strength physically and emotionally to persevere beyond my limitations.  I am changing my views on myself and believing in me, my offerings and my skills.  I am meeting people, mentors and facilitators because of my "right" alignment with universe.  The latest is Elliot Hulse, a youtube sensation in the fitness world.  We had dinner the other eve and ended up sharing the beauty of connection, vibration/energy and the Divine Feminine energy we all encompass.  We discussed yoga, mediation and the importance of balance.  I was so in awe by the direction of the conversation and grateful to find someone to talk with, I cried tears of joy.  He gave me yet another allowance or confirmation that I am on it!  To hold back my beliefs and passions because someone may not understand it is untruthful. I should talk about all the aspects of my knowledge and share my gifts unedited, teach it, and give it.  Yes absolutely fucking give it all and believe there is a higher purpose through me and you that binds us to truth.  The ones who matter and care will get it.  I am a vehicle of the Divine, goddess energy, and this will set me free!

Take hold your power what ever it may be.  A mother (care taker), a father (even if female), an artist, an empath, a seeker, a teacher/mentor, and inventor, or facilitator of growth and run with it!  Don't hold back your gifts God has given you.  Don't play small to fit in or fill some social norms and boxes.  Be too big to fit inside those boxes for you and me are energy beyond the physical body.  We connect with people via energy waves, heart waves and heart brains all bound by universal love.
BE YOU NOW.

I MOVE to LIVE

I move to live.

Movement moves feelings

Encourages emotions

Creates confidence in my body and mind.

I move to live

More passionately, humbly, and peacefully.

Movement comes naturally when I hear music,

By body moves to the rhythm

The music becomes alive with depth and meaning.

I move to live

When I feel compassion or love for someone

My body moves instinctually

To hug, to soothe, to sway.

My movement is a direct relationship with my heart brain

For my body and mind are in perfect union with God.

 Erin Politis Ciao Baby Photography

Just when I thought I lost myself, I went Full Circle

This summer has made me crazy!!!  I think you all have gotten that from me if you know me and read along. I work hard physically and mentally; the weather issues get me agitated, and life stuff.  All I want to do is escape, fly away, and stop everything at times.  You know what I mean?  Throw the towel in and live on an island.  Now I know that isn’t the answer but at least I am honest about it.  So here is a story on how I flew away to escape and came “full circle” to find my self again.

Journal entry from August 21, 2015

So grateful to be able to come back again and again to Venice Beach, CA and it always feels the same, HOME.  I had a few hours to spend alone so I drove around the neighborhood I used to live in and visited all my favorite little places to shop and eat and ended up on Rose Ave at Cervateca, a fabulous outdoor dining café.  I ate exquisite Peruvian ceviche and a glass of Malbec wine.  In an hour or so I was going to one of my favorite activities to do only in Venice Beach, ecstatic dance with a DJ.  This is what got me into yoga in the first place, dancing and moving for freedom of expression.  I had found my soul again!

My friend and teacher Julian Walker has these movements every week, as I follow him via newsletters etc., as a lifeline to my “people”.  So walking down the street from the café towards the address listed for the event I notice the familiarity and proximity to a place I thought I would never return to.  And there it was!  The Hare Krishna Temple, now redone and new!

The memories flooded through me, good and bad and indifferent.  This was my place of education, yoga, life, stereotypes broken, and eyes wide open.  I started my first teacher training in 2007 with Shiva Rea at Exhale Venice Beach.  Shiva had her students congregate at the temple every day for about 3-4 hours to go over materials and practice teaching with one another.  I thought it was the most disgusting place I had ever been in at the time. 

The floor was filthy, roaches and ants, trash and food in the corners and dirty Hare Krishna’s walking around like they had never seen a shower or laundry machine.  It was fucking disgusting so I went across the street on the 2^nd day of 10 days of training and bought Lysol and antibacterial lotion.  I would spray myself down in a spiral of disinfectant, all my items and mat after each visit.  People thought I was crazy.  I thought they were crazy for lying on the floor, face down practicing cobra pose!  My hope was to NEVER return again.  Well as life goes to show you, “never say never” and brings me back Full Circle, here I am again.  And the best part…it is called Full Circle.  Full Circle is a place to commune, to be free, to practice expression, art, movement, and unity.  All these things I have learned since 2007.  And out of all the places I have traveled to find it, all the time it has been right here!

I walked into the building after donating double the offering, did a face plant onto the floor and rolled all over the place.  I danced and crawled like the primal goddess that I am.  My soul was free to be and my body expressed it with such ecstatic joy.  All feelings flooded me with how life comes back “full circle”.  Life is not full of coincidences; it is full of synchronicity that makes us come FULL CIRCLE.

Namaste