Spring Equinox Maddness

Spring equinox drives me to be crazy, scattered, fearful ad doubtful.  Full of fear vs. faith.  There seem to be a disconnect in the universe between people, commitments and communication.  My creative artist side is on fire a blaze and out of control. idea’s coming at me like burst of flames.  I try to hose them down and at least capture one to put out on paper or into motion but all the other flames are just too big to focus on one. I panic, get aggitated and annoyed with myself and the world.  I judge myself against others who appear have it all figure out.

So I go back to my resources of books, meditations and mantra’s to find faith and peace.

Life is life.  You gotta meet “life on life’s terms.” AA slogan

“Seek refuge in inner calm, free your thought from the external world and you will feel the rays of Gods goodness and love during over you and the universe.”    Iranshahr

Mantra “I give myself the power and strength in my body to overcome my mind when I feel weak, depressed, or moody.  Together, my mind and body are a perfect team to provide me strength to conquer the day and my life.”

Meditation:

Take 5 long deep breaths seated or lying down.

Visualize the color of purple at the 3rd eye between the brows.

All your attention and energy goes towards it like an absorption or devouring.

The 3rd eye becomes a sea aninimae undulating energy. Absorbing your thoughts and fears. 

Visualize and feel the energy of absorption flow down to your heart center.

Your heart space feels full and expansive as the breath travels and fills your low belly, across the lungs widening your center.

Place your hands here.

Now you feel ease and can see through the crazy.

You see purpose and passion for your gifts from God. Faith.

The energy travels lower and pervades your hips where the 2nd chakra of create lives and suddenly you feel well being and wholeness.

Stay here for minutes and visualize what that is what it looks like, feels and live as if it is so right now.

Experience your desires as if it is happening right now.

It is happening right now. 

The ego and self will and esteem have stopped scattering like wild flames.

Now I am with my highest self, centered and one with God. 

I breathe in and say it is so.

Open you eyes and begin again your day.

When balance doesn't exist...

My crazy side when I let loose, dance and be free!

Today I am grateful, it’s the weekend! What a week or two I have had. Keeping my head above water, trying to get out of my head, and staying vertical has been a challenge. Too many roles and obligations I try to fill all the time. It is my own choice, as I act like the man in my relationship with myself. Well the "man" is tired and the "woman" needs to be seen and heard and most of all loved. All my life I have had to be more masculine in order to defend myself, stay in control when things were not due to family and financial distress.  Today my life is good, to most it probably seen awesome.  But inside deep down in the old wounds and mental patterns I still behave like it’s a struggle.  The struggle is real for most and me.  It is time for softness, the return of the feminine goddess we all have, even men, to show herself. 

BALANCE ladies, take a step back and be soft.  Allow others to help you just as much as you do. 

My week of self-love and BALANCE has been a journey. This is not a "pity party" story but a reminder to give back to yourself just as much as you give. Otherwise you just fucking break down. Monday I locked myself in to my house away from pollen and into movies. I never do that! Tuesday massage with Justin Rockett and had my whole arm taped due to tendonitis that just won't stop because I won't stop.... Wednesday went to an epic session with Elena Zaphara Bensonoff who guided me back to my feminine spirit (she is amazing if you have not been with her before!!!) Then held a group discussion at house with amazing women regarding balance with Charna Kety, Lindsey Kelly Finer, Kelly Breeding, Tristan Reiber, Bridgett O'Meara Yoga, and few others. Thursday had another massage with James Truitt and movement with Moses Bernard for one last playtime together. Friday taught yoga with my ladies Bella Prana Yoga and Meditation and off to Kodawari Studios for an epic deprivation float tank experience to mediate for an hour. Off to sleep I went. Thank you to all who support me on my journey. And much love to all of those who need LOVE.

The Philosophy Behind MOVE

The Philosophy Behind MOVE

Our bodies are amazing machines. They are designed to be able to move in all directions, to defend against the unexpected, and to be able to contract force. In addition to all of the work, our body is also designed for rewarding experiences- to be intimate, to express feelings and to sleep for extended periods of time.

In todays’ fast-paced society, it appears to me that we have created a habit of separating our bodies from our minds and spirits, inevitably creating dis-ease and imbalance. Working with my clients and even in myself, I witness breakdowns from the defeats of these imbalances. I feel that we need to get back to making the mind-body connection in order to get real and see real change.

If you want to see real change, it has to start with you. No one can do this for you. So what is it going to take to get you to MOVE? What is it going to take for you to be motivated enough to make changes from the very core values you have and see it as a holistic approach to a lifestyle. Because that is exactly what MOVE is- A holistic approach of you looking at YOU as mind, body, spirit and all the juicy stuff in between. The training never stops and the diet never ends. This isn’t about weight loss or a quick fix. This is about lifestyle.  And your life depends on it.

The honesty and vulnerability it takes to really see through all of your

“stuff”- your denial, your excuses- will show up in your body. Your

body, just like your mind and heart, has a history. The body talks,

stores emotions, and reacts even if you were trying your hardest in

your mind to stop it. Your body hears every word you say out loud

and inside. You have to get real honest with what you are telling

yourself and if it is congruent with your goals. Are you treating yourself the way you want to turn out? If you are telling

yourself often “I am fat” then your body is going to accept it. That’s the truth.

Change doesn’t happen overnight. I like to tell my clients to envision this new lifestyle as a journey. Reflect on a journey you had in the past; something you never thought you could do or get through. It could be marriage, divorce, death of a loved one, having kids, graduating college, or starting a career. Then look at where you are now. You did do it. You were able to get through it. And you can do this as well. It isn’t going to be easy. There will be challenges. You are going to have to dig deep and get honest with yourself. Figure out what you want and go for those deep desires of your mind, body, and heart.  And then, with my guidance and support, we can embark on this journey together.

You Are Truth

You know what is true.

You have people who love you.

You have talents for survival and success.

You can sacrifice to persevere.

Through the struggles are the triumphs

Because,

You deserve happiness, freedom and love.

You are not an object, a subject, or controlled by anyone.

Your life is yours!

Spring brings change. Allow yourself to transition by releasing 

old patterns and behaviors that do not serve you.  

Love and honor yourself always.

Go to the ocean and renew.

Dream it, believe it.

My life continues to unfold and evolve in the most tremendous ways!  My friend and mentor Moses has been a blessing in so many attributes giving me the strength physically and emotionally to persevere beyond my limitations.  I am changing my views on myself and believing in me, my offerings and my skills.  I am meeting people, mentors and facilitators because of my "right" alignment with universe.  The latest is Elliot Hulse, a youtube sensation in the fitness world.  We had dinner the other eve and ended up sharing the beauty of connection, vibration/energy and the Divine Feminine energy we all encompass.  We discussed yoga, mediation and the importance of balance.  I was so in awe by the direction of the conversation and grateful to find someone to talk with, I cried tears of joy.  He gave me yet another allowance or confirmation that I am on it!  To hold back my beliefs and passions because someone may not understand it is untruthful. I should talk about all the aspects of my knowledge and share my gifts unedited, teach it, and give it.  Yes absolutely fucking give it all and believe there is a higher purpose through me and you that binds us to truth.  The ones who matter and care will get it.  I am a vehicle of the Divine, goddess energy, and this will set me free!

Take hold your power what ever it may be.  A mother (care taker), a father (even if female), an artist, an empath, a seeker, a teacher/mentor, and inventor, or facilitator of growth and run with it!  Don't hold back your gifts God has given you.  Don't play small to fit in or fill some social norms and boxes.  Be too big to fit inside those boxes for you and me are energy beyond the physical body.  We connect with people via energy waves, heart waves and heart brains all bound by universal love.
BE YOU NOW.

I MOVE to LIVE

I move to live.

Movement moves feelings

Encourages emotions

Creates confidence in my body and mind.

I move to live

More passionately, humbly, and peacefully.

Movement comes naturally when I hear music,

By body moves to the rhythm

The music becomes alive with depth and meaning.

I move to live

When I feel compassion or love for someone

My body moves instinctually

To hug, to soothe, to sway.

My movement is a direct relationship with my heart brain

For my body and mind are in perfect union with God.

 Erin Politis Ciao Baby Photography