Showing posts with label body image. Show all posts
Showing posts with label body image. Show all posts

Wednesday, March 29, 2017

Spring Equinox Maddness


Spring equinox drives me to be crazy, scattered, fearful ad doubtful.  Full of fear vs. faith.  There seem to be a disconnect in the universe between people, commitments and communication.  My creative artist side is on fire a blaze and out of control. idea’s coming at me like burst of flames.  I try to hose them down and at least capture one to put out on paper or into motion but all the other flames are just too big to focus on one. I panic, get aggitated and annoyed with myself and the world.  I judge myself against others who appear have it all figure out.

So I go back to my resources of books, meditations and mantra’s to find faith and peace.

Life is life.  You gotta meet “life on life’s terms.” AA slogan

“Seek refuge in inner calm, free your thought from the external world and you will feel the rays of Gods goodness and love during over you and the universe.”    Iranshahr

Mantra “I give myself the power and strength in my body to overcome my mind when I feel weak, depressed, or moody.  Together, my mind and body are a perfect team to provide me strength to conquer the day and my life.”

Meditation:

Take 5 long deep breaths seated or lying down.
Visualize the color of purple at the 3rd eye between the brows.
All your attention and energy goes towards it like an absorption or devouring.
The 3rd eye becomes a sea aninimae undulating energy. Absorbing your thoughts and fears. 
Visualize and feel the energy of absorption flow down to your heart center.
Your heart space feels full and expansive as the breath travels and fills your low belly, across the lungs widening your center.
Place your hands here.
Now you feel ease and can see through the crazy.
You see purpose and passion for your gifts from God. Faith.
The energy travels lower and pervades your hips where the 2nd chakra of create lives and suddenly you feel well being and wholeness.
Stay here for minutes and visualize what that is what it looks like, feels and live as if it is so right now.
Experience your desires as if it is happening right now.
It is happening right now. 
The ego and self will and esteem have stopped scattering like wild flames.
Now I am with my highest self, centered and one with God. 
I breathe in and say it is so.

Open you eyes and begin again your day.







Friday, April 1, 2016

When balance doesn't exist...

My crazy side when I let loose, dance and be free!
Today I am grateful, it’s the weekend! What a week or two I have had. Keeping my head above water, trying to get out of my head, and staying vertical has been a challenge. Too many roles and obligations I try to fill all the time. It is my own choice, as I act like the man in my relationship with myself. Well the "man" is tired and the "woman" needs to be seen and heard and most of all loved. All my life I have had to be more masculine in order to defend myself, stay in control when things were not due to family and financial distress.  Today my life is good, to most it probably seen awesome.  But inside deep down in the old wounds and mental patterns I still behave like it’s a struggle.  The struggle is real for most and me.  It is time for softness, the return of the feminine goddess we all have, even men, to show herself. 

BALANCE ladies, take a step back and be soft.  Allow others to help you just as much as you do. 



My week of self-love and BALANCE has been a journey. This is not a "pity party" story but a reminder to give back to yourself just as much as you give. Otherwise you just fucking break down. Monday I locked myself in to my house away from pollen and into movies. I never do that! Tuesday massage with Justin Rockett and had my whole arm taped due to tendonitis that just won't stop because I won't stop.... Wednesday went to an epic session with Elena Zaphara Bensonoff who guided me back to my feminine spirit (she is amazing if you have not been with her before!!!) Then held a group discussion at house with amazing women regarding balance with Charna Kety, Lindsey Kelly Finer, Kelly Breeding, Tristan Reiber, Bridgett O'Meara Yoga, and few others. Thursday had another massage with James Truitt and movement with Moses Bernard for one last playtime together. Friday taught yoga with my ladies Bella Prana Yoga and Meditation and off to Kodawari Studios for an epic deprivation float tank experience to mediate for an hour. Off to sleep I went. Thank you to all who support me on my journey. And much love to all of those who need LOVE.

Friday, March 25, 2016

The Philosophy Behind MOVE



The Philosophy Behind MOVE

Our bodies are amazing machines. They are designed to be able to move in all directions, to defend against the unexpected, and to be able to contract force. In addition to all of the work, our body is also designed for rewarding experiences- to be intimate, to express feelings and to sleep for extended periods of time.

In todays’ fast-paced society, it appears to me that we have created a habit of separating our bodies from our minds and spirits, inevitably creating dis-ease and imbalance. Working with my clients and even in myself, I witness breakdowns from the defeats of these imbalances. I feel that we need to get back to making the mind-body connection in order to get real and see real change.

If you want to see real change, it has to start with you. No one can do this for you. So what is it going to take to get you to MOVE? What is it going to take for you to be motivated enough to make changes from the very core values you have and see it as a holistic approach to a lifestyle. Because that is exactly what MOVE is- A holistic approach of you looking at YOU as mind, body, spirit and all the juicy stuff in between. The training never stops and the diet never ends. This isn’t about weight loss or a quick fix. This is about lifestyle.  And your life depends on it.



The honesty and vulnerability it takes to really see through all of your
“stuff”- your denial, your excuses- will show up in your body. Your
body, just like your mind and heart, has a history. The body talks,
stores emotions, and reacts even if you were trying your hardest in
your mind to stop it. Your body hears every word you say out loud
and inside. You have to get real honest with what you are telling
yourself and if it is congruent with your goals. Are you treating yourself the way you want to turn out? If you are telling
yourself often “I am fat” then your body is going to accept it. That’s the truth.

Change doesn’t happen overnight. I like to tell my clients to envision this new lifestyle as a journey. Reflect on a journey you had in the past; something you never thought you could do or get through. It could be marriage, divorce, death of a loved one, having kids, graduating college, or starting a career. Then look at where you are now. You did do it. You were able to get through it. And you can do this as well. It isn’t going to be easy. There will be challenges. You are going to have to dig deep and get honest with yourself. Figure out what you want and go for those deep desires of your mind, body, and heart.  And then, with my guidance and support, we can embark on this journey together.




Wednesday, March 2, 2016

I MOVE to LIVE


I move to live.
Movement moves feelings
Encourages emotions
Creates confidence in my body and mind.
I move to live
More passionately, humbly, and peacefully.
Movement comes naturally when I hear music,
By body moves to the rhythm
The music becomes alive with depth and meaning.
I move to live
When I feel compassion or love for someone
My body moves instinctually
To hug, to soothe, to sway.
My movement is a direct relationship with my heart brain
For my body and mind are in perfect union with God.


 Erin Politis Ciao Baby Photography


Tuesday, July 7, 2015

My Story of MOVE Me On a Victorious Evolution








Personal goals and professional

I strive to empower others by being confident and authentic in my daily life.  My days are filled with people coming in and out of my home, which I have opened to the public, for classes.  The class is called MOVE, a hybrid of many movement methods combined into one hour of giving it all you got!  I also teach MOVE yoga, a hybrid of asana’s and functional movements.  The home studio is always flowing with people and positive vibrations.  This requires me to always be “on” and open to the public without a lot of privacy.  Sharing my life publicly offers me a very real experience of living off the mat.  My space, my life is my seva (service).  I work to create an environment where others can gain power, learn life skills, and feel safe in order to encourage growth and authenticity.

At times I feel discouraged and lonely, creating a career that is outside the norm.  My daily life activities are different than most. But on the other side of this feeling is powerful and courageous because I am pioneering a lifestyle in an area where people want and desire to be more healthy, authentic, and powerful in their own way.
My style of teaching and guiding others daily is filled with encouragement, real stories to relate to, and education on healthy living and choices. 

FEAR does not control me.  I once lived a fear based life with time lines and future thinking.  Today I live with contentment and focus on the present as much as I can while striving toward future goals.  I will be opening a studio soon with many types of classes, fusions of styles, and empowering teachers and students to move in a way they never thought possible.  I aim to remove limitations, teach proper movement, and build confidence from the inside out.  Yoga is not just asana; it is a way of moving and living in both strength and ease.


Why I became and instructor

I have been teaching, leading, choreographing since I was a little girl.  It is innate.  I have always been a mover, climber, dancer, expressionist in my life.  Every day I want to share this joy and inner peace that I receive from positive movement. 

Yoga and movement have been my foundation for all other area’s of my life.  When I feel depressed, anxious or out of control I have gone to movement and continue to practice.  My life has been greatly influenced and enhanced by my ability to feel my body, calm my mind and move from my soul, therefore increasing my confidence and living from my true self. 
As a teacher/influencer of anything, I feel the most important thing is to be relateable and tangible.  Meaning, I have to walk the talk such as: real life experiences with relationships; death; divorce; sex, bullying; shaming; molestation; money; status change; identity issues; drugs; suicide; and the list goes on.  I have had the opportunity to experience all these things allowing my heart and mind to have a greater understanding for others.
I was born and raised most of my younger years in Southern California in a beautiful little beach village, San Clemente.  Life was pretty simple there, no locked doors, the beach was the park for all the kids.  As soon as school started I was bullied by girls.  They threatened to beat me up, throw me in the dumpster, and yell at me publicly trying ridicule me for existing.  I never knew why when I was younger.  I was strong, athletic, tall, and had a lot of great friends.  So I took the opportunity to stand up for myself using my body in a positive way to fight back.  I beat them at teather ball, kick ball, dodge ball, and dancing.  I even had a lunch time “dance off” in front of the whole 8th grade and won.  These hard but valuable lessons taught me how amazing our bodies and minds can work together for a positive result that impacts self and others as a whole.
When I was in high school, like many other girls, I suffered from body image disorder.  I had a great body!  In fact I received a plaque “best figure” from my entire high school vote.  This award turned out to be a curse for me, as I always wanted to live up to this image.  Once I got to college I was in the cycle of eating disorders and partying.  Trying to do it all, be it all and stay perfect.  Over time I realized how unhealthy I had become through my studies in psychology, I received a BA in psychology.  This degree prompted confidence and more courage while helping me discover my identity.
After college I had a low point.  Too many options and no direction, heart broken and estranged from my habitat, I developed agitated depression.  This type of depression is aggressive, angry, and erratic behavior.  My mom had a talk with me one day and said, “You should do yoga”.  She was a psychotherapist and new age mom from S. CA with every answer under the sun including every analysis.  My first reaction was, “here we go, another thing to do and analyze”.  However, she dared me to do it.  Well that did it!  I tried it that next week and have never stopped since.  Yoga was and is the gateway to my optimal health of mind, body and spirit.  It was like it had always been there in other forms, dance, movement, and meditation.  Now there was a true format, sequence, philosophy and teachers.  My life changed from that point on. 
After finding my teachers Shiva Rea, through Trance Dance teacher training, the very first module I ever took in the yoga teacher curriculum, I was addicted and set free.  Another 3 months later I was in Shiva’s 10-day immersion in Venice Beach, CA with 70 strangers all eager to seek freedom and self.  Within this immersion I met my other teacher Micheline Berry, who guided me to find my voice and USE IT.  Two powerful, confident, and sexy women who use their body, mind, and spirit to guide others to their truth showed me I too could be free.

Finding my voice and love of helping others through their lows to their highs, I have made a career out of it.  My love for service to the average beautiful individual who stands with me every day lays deep in my soul.  I have tried to steer away from this type of work.  I chose others careers like cosmetology, secretary, photography, and even law.  There has been nothing more satisfying than what I do today.

What I teach


MOVE
Fusion inspired fitness and lifestyle

MOVE is a Fitness Program
MOVE is an innovative fitness formulation designed by Me On a Victorious Evolution.  Move (puts the fun) reinforces FUN in exercise.  MOVE uses a multitude of tools, including resistance bands, kettle bells, medicine balls, TRX,
Pilates, Barre, plyometric moves, isometric moves to get the heart rate up, build muscle and burn calories.  MOVE (combines yoga philosophy and movements, mind/body connection and meditation) culminates in a yoga stretch and meditative cool down. After a 1-hour session, you are ready to (take on any obstacles, tackle the rest of your day.

MOVE is a State of Being
MOVErs are continually looking for opportunities to MOVE through exercise, dance, yoga each day.

MOVE is a State of Mind
MOVErs   practice daily being mindful of their physical, mental and emotional health.

What does MOVE do?
Use of all angles and modalities of movement to make you sweat, burn calories, increase strength, endurance, build muscle, definition and toning leaving you with a total body, mind and heart felt experience.  MOVE empowers your mind, your body, and your spirit.
No muscle is left out.  Your mind is in constant connection with your body to move correctly preventing injury, adaptation and increase performance again and again.
The workout is never the same.


Prana Flow created by Shiva Rea.  I also teach a blend of power, alignment, and flow into an empowering practice to strengthen from the core and outward.

Forgiveness and acceptance

How to live healthy and balanced without guilt or shame

Teach people how to use and move their body and why.  Turn people’s brains on and quiets their minds.

Power of one move can change your life. 

Be the architect of your body and allow your soul to live freely within it.



Who and What inspires me

When someone learns a new movement or perform it well in a short period of time.  The transference of empowerment
All people inspire me all types every day
Movement inspires me every day learning something new as whole unit of body mind and spirit.  It’s a ripple effect
When someone is doing what they love
Observing someone move away from their fears and limitations in movement and thought patterns

You never know who is going to cross your path in this type of work.  It is karmic, synchronisitous, and universes plan.  I live by this formula and accept the “yes” and no’s” from it, however one in particular stands out.  Her name is Lalla (one of my favorite poets to protect her identity). 
One day I received an anonymous phone call from a woman who randomly got my number from the yoga studio I work with.  She asked a little about me, what I teach, if I work with beginners, and where I teach?  She was very emphatic about the environment as you see; she wears a hijab and cannot be seen by men without it.  I was taken aback at first because this was a new experience for me, especially living in a suburban conservative area.  I was excited and curious though, I knew I was going to learn something big here.  You never know who is going to be the teacher or the “ah ha’s” that appear, you just gotta be open to the mystery. 
Well she came over in full hijab and introduced herself at my door with excitement and nervousness.  Her eyes piercing through her veil, she expressed everything to me. As she discussed why she wanted to do yoga, her breathing was hyperactive, almost to the verge of an anxiety attack.  Layer by layer her hijab was removed and appeared a beautiful skinned Lebanese woman with a great yoga outfit on!  “I am so excited Ashley I just don’t know what to do with myself!  This feels so great to be in your home and be able to express me.  When do we start?!”  If my face could have been videoed I’m sure I must have looked as excited and as shocked as she was.  We began our session with breathing and slow movement.  Her breath was so rapid I thought for sure she was going to have an anxiety attack.  I told her to breathe into the spaces in her body that feel tight.  Over time we got somewhere, but boy did we have a journey ahead.  To make a long story short, she came to me over a course of 6 months.  We moved, practiced yoga, belly danced, laughed and cried.  One day she finally told me her story.  It was a story filled with pain, abuse, manipulation, and hatred from her mother, slavery, and misogyny.  These are all my worst nightmares to feel and hear about.  I shared my story of similar parallels as we held each and screamed at the top of our lungs until we were exhausted.  Then we laid in silence in my little yoga studio and it began to hail.  The hail came down so hard the size of golf balls in the middle of summer in Florida!  It was a true sign from Universe that this will forever been over and done with.  That our pain shared together will disappear just like the melting of the hail.


Mission:

Empower people to be strong in/out and live authentically
Teach people that being healthy isn’t hard to do.  That each day you have a choice (in fact many choices due to the luxurious country we live in) to pick up an apple or a candy bar.  It all adds up.  However long you have been unhealthy is going to take you time to undo and to practice patience and acceptance.  It is not hopeless. 
Helping people by being of service to those who lack confidence, addiction and fears.


My goals and what makes me different
I have spent the last 20 years devoted to movement encompassing dance, sports and athletic training. I began to follow yoga as a way to balance my mind and body. As a certified 500-hour registered yoga teacher and NASM CPT, I have continued my training with master experts around the nation.  Teachers included are Shiva Rea, Micheline Berry, in which I assisted and studied under for 2 years as my primary internship and occupation for service.  Also mentioned and adored is Annie Carpenter, who has taught me the fascination of anatomy and alignment.  Moses Bernard for combining all the movement patterns together from infantile stages to the elder population of regressed movement patterns.

This is why I do what I do:
I am an enthusiastic athletic female ready to take on any movement. I realized many people are not easily as motivated or inspired.  I have discovered that people want to move, play, and have the innate ability to do most anything, they just need the inspiration.  I create a mindful fitness experience by teaching people to use their body in natural movements and build upon them as they progress in the program.  Anyone can do it!

Authentic why:
As a little girl, I found strength when I was moving.  I loved climbing, body surfing, and dancing, but I was an outcast and always on the fringe of intimidation.  When I discovered yoga and merged it with strength training I found my power and hidden courage.  The anxiety melted away and I felt fortified.  This is my passion now, to empower all those who seek the emergence of their strength, dharma, and power to live authentically from the inside out.

Reputation
I am motivating, enthusiastic, and playful when teaching.  I have had the experience of being on both sides of the teaching and learning format for many years.  This experience has led me to expose my real self without fear and intimidation.  That means, I am raw, spontaneous, confident, silly, and powerful in order to bring out the very best in people.  My mantra is “embrace who you are, explore your potential, and evolve into the master of your best self”.  My hope is to awaken the spirit of the inner warrior and peace-maker within all of us.